I've got so many ideas running through my mind all day. Lately, I've been writing down a lot of them, and tomorrow I have a meeting to get some of these projects started. I have such a huge urge to film a whole bunch of stuff. Some scenes, monologues, and mostly a series I would like to create. I am spending a lot of times these days at the library and Barnes and Noble, researching things to write about, studying things that seem irrelevant to my life but that I figure would be good to know... I need to write about what I know, what I'm close to, and since what I want to write about is not really my life, I am researching and in a sort of a Method maneuver am becoming the person I would like to write about. If anyone is reading this and wants to direct their film friends to me, I'd love to make some new friends. It'd be great to find more people for this passion project. ... As an aside to this, I am actively going out (mostly because work has been slow and I work only a few times a week) and I'm enjoying it. Of course, I need to find a way to finance this life a bit more, but I will manage it better upon my return from my trip at the end of summer. I will be out of LA, and in fact the country for the month of September. I can hardly wait! I'll be in NYC in just a little over a month from today. I have been thinking of all the people that I want to see and hope that they want to see me just as much. I want to see some shows and go to my favorite New York restaurants and locations! So stoked!! Following a week in NYC, I will be visiting family in Israel. This, too, is going to be so incredibly joyous! In fact, JOY is where it's at. My dear friend, Jennifer (shout out!), made me a bracelet with the word engraved onto a circle, and well, I've been thinking about it a lot. What Joy means to me, what joy I already have, what joy I would like, etc. And it reminds me of a journal entry I was assigned to write in a college musical theater class. The topic was Joy vs. Fear- to define them in my life and find similarities between them. I'll have to read the entry when I visit my parents' house next week and see exactly what I wrote. But in thinking of it now, I am realizing that many things that give me joy came out of conquering a fear or giving up on fear. And, going back to this bracelet, Joy is attainable, and exists all the time. You just have to be aware of it and welcome it into your life. Forget about the things you fear and the things that make you unhappy. Remind yourself of something small that brings you joy and it will brighten up your day. Joy. "If my world were to cave in tomorrow, I would look back on all the pleasures, excitements and worthwhilenesses I have been lucky enough to have had. Not the sadness... but the joy of everything else. It will have been enough." -Audrey Hepburn